It’s raining outside.  Sometimes if I imagine that it is raining words, I can write.
Last night was the Full Moon and an eclipse (though my vision was never good enough to see a penumbral eclipse).
I was playing all sorts of stuff on my music player (you can see what I play at Last.fm).  I would die without it, but those of you who are reading this probably already know that… and out of that combination came the inspiration of choosing a date to make my site live.

The date that everyone who has encouraged me to write has been waiting for shall be November 3.  Keep reading; you’ll get to the reason eventually.

My kids just left.  We were watching the Lady Gaga 2013 itunes festival show from an HD video… I can’t stop watching it.  Apple keeps issuing takedown notices to Google after it gets 250K youtube views so I saved it to a file.  Fortunately, files don’t wear out like records.
Anyway, I was raving about how I thought the song “I Wanna Be With You” was so fabulous and my favorite.  My son Jeremy said he thought that “Applause” was my favorite.  I like that song, in fact the whole show except for the rap song is so amazing I’m like continuously goosebumpy.  Jeremy left before I could explain why my preferences lie where they do, so I’m going to write about it.

It’s because “I Wanna Be With You” is a song she wrote for her fans, and the way it was performed leaves me no doubt about the genuineness of it and of her words and her delivery.  It was written for me.  Not just me, of course, but that makes me feel personally involved, and it matters.  “Thanks for taking me back” is just precious.

That is the kind of artist that I relate to.  It’s something I find important and that song is very symbolic of that.  I really love the other songs too, and the variety of topics (“Applause” being symbolic of why she performs, obviously “Swine” is about sexual abuse particularly of young or vulnerable people which is another of my own intensely personal ‘things’).  I am not a LG scholar but I do enjoy reading some of it…

That’s how Blondie is.  I was too young to even conceive at the time that this would be so important… perhaps it was subconsciously perceived.  Why it was Blondie, why I chose Debbie Harry and Chris Stein (or maybe they chose me?) is an ongoing investigation in my own head but I’m sure it has something to do with this.  Maybe people who feel that way about the importance of their fans write better music or make performances that are more emotional and feel more real than those who don’t.  When I’m on this topic I also think a lot about Shirley Manson of Garbage and Christina Perri and Lisa and Johnny of Killola.  They are the ones who I know enough about to know that fact about them.

The last thing I will say about that video is a cut-and-paste from my Facebook post late last night:

I can’t help but comment that Lady Gaga’s beautiful song she did in her own hair “I Wanna Be With You” from the iTunes festival London performance
“I won’t be right without you/
and I might break without you/
I’d rather be poor and happy/
than rich and alone.
I’ll write hit songs about you/
No matter how we’ll get through/
I’ll keep on singing for a living/
but I want to be in love/
and I want to be with you.”

I was a skeptic at the beginning but this song touches me like the one I saw her do on Saturday Night Live and I could never have imagined or predicted my reaction to that performance.

Debbie Harry said to me, in person after they had just performed together that she likes Lady Gaga, and that really makes me happy. Because that line I quoted: “I won’t be right be without you and I might break without you”, that is how I feel about all of you, every one of you who I have ever met whether you like what I listen to or not, whether we have ever met in person, and no matter how much pain we have been through. There is a special place for the artists who genuinely adore their fans. They live forever and we cherish them. You all know who you are! I wish I could write for a song for all of you, but I can’t, but I do relate to the “I would anything for you”. My blog will be visible on November 3. You’ll have to listen to why it’s that day and oh, the verbiage when it’s on my own site and not about directed advertising, you’ll see.

*Nite* xxxx eclipse moon

I already know some of you are going to comment something like “Gaga is no Lady”.  I will pre-empt it here with my cut+paste response:

No, she’s an artist. Well, to be accurate, Stefani Germanotta is the artist and Lady Gaga is her artwork. It’s an ongoing performance piece. It’s okay if people don’t like it or her as there is a lot of art in the world that I don’t like or don’t get.

Fast forward to launch day to read why it had to be November 3.